And another month passed hoping it will be better than the one before. I've been in a slump. Nothing much has changed; I still have a messed up sleeping schedule and unemployed. I still drown myself between the pages of my endless stack of books. This mind numbing state I'm going through better ends soon.
March was the month I decided to meet up with a friend I haven't seen in a very long time. We went to the same school in grade 4 and 5 and I barely remember how our personalities used to be. It was really good catching up and we've talked a lot about random topics from Sufism to consciousness and dreams. I tried making an effort meeting more friends during the month but I always find myself preferring my own company as much as possible.
Family gatherings always leave a giddy feeling in me but soon after everyone leaves and I'm left with memories of a time when we met on a regular basis. My grandparents were the glue that kept the family together, giving us a very very good excuse to meet every weekend. I can't help but miss my grandmother the most after every gathering and every weekend we decide not to meet. It feels like weekends don't have a purpose anymore.
On the bright side, we have an archery shooting range that we've tried yesterday. A great way to let off some steam.
Hoping April will treat me better