Sunday, November 08, 2015

Dear 26

Dear 26,

Sometimes you won't feel good. You might stay up until 5 am locked in that maze of thoughts and when you finally sleep get woken up by a nightmare. You might wake up and drop your glasses where even your skinny arm won't reach. You'll make a cup of coffee and forget to drink it until its ice cold and too sour that even heating it up won't do. You might be around people who found their way through your current hope. You'll hear talks you wish you spoke. You might hold a pen and find nothing to express. Your face will be dry and your hair will fall. You'll be stressed out. You'll work really hard for something and still manage to mess it up. You might cry and you might laugh it off. You'll wish you could meet certain people but end up meeting people you want to avoid. You'll run hoping you can run away from your thoughts. You'll walk to allow your brain to think so that it might stop thinking later on. You might put all the make up you have yet still look tired. But it's ok. Because no matter how bad it is, it won't get worse. And no matter how hard it gets, you'll find a way through. If you don't sleep today or tomorrow you will get your share of rest another day. And if you missed the cup of coffee you made, someone will make you a better one. And when your glasses fall just trust your memory to lead you to the cabinet that has your lenses. And when people talk about things you wish you had think of the things that make you happy. And that conversation you wish you spoke, you will one day and it will be a melody. Find muse in your hardest days, when things don't seem like they're going the way they should, because a day will come and you'll write it so beautifully you'll be glad you didn't give up.

Yours truly,
23 having a hard week